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season

2012-01-28T10:17:00.002+08:00

Its been nearly three months since I'm with you.... E.

finding myself falling deeper and deeper into your life...

There's a lot of UPS and downs between us... I really hope you will cherish the short love that we have right now..

I know. I probably am not suitable for you.. But I believe, we can work it out well...

As for c, I'm really sorry that things have to end up in this manner... I hate myself for everything...

I love you E..

The Broken Popcorn Machine Parable

2011-02-20T17:32:00.002+08:00

Came across a website telling about one-sided love problems.. this quote is really well..

The son gets a coin from his mother for popcorn but comes back empty-handed, so his mother walks over to the machine with him to help. She is careful to put the right coin in the right slot, and she even shakes the machine, but no popcorn comes out. She turns away but he pulls her back, his heart set on popcorn. "The popcorn is right there," he cries, "I can see it, and we put the money in, so why can't you do something to get it?"
His mother gently explains why she can't help. "I'm afraid there's nothing you can do and nothing I can do; the machine is broken and the only one who can fix it is a popcorn machine repairman."

Hope i can just move on to another popcorn machine who will just dedicate its lifespan dispensing popcorns solely for me..

Expectation..

2011-02-04T11:11:00.001+08:00

U told me not to expect anything from u.. So u r telling me u don't care if I'm around u or not?

Breaks my heart

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Jus simple..

2011-02-02T21:54:00.001+08:00

I just need a simple girl who can dedicate her energy into me.. Is tt so hard a request

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3rd party..

2011-02-02T04:51:00.001+08:00

I seriously think that there's a third person involved in us.. Just dunno is who.. Damn him.

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Location:Bayfront Ave,,Singapore

Is she?

2011-02-01T20:14:00.001+08:00

Is she really the one? I feel I'm just pursuing for an impossible dream.. I just really really hope she will put in some effort to us.. At the very least.. If not.. I'll just fly away like the wind blows..

Don't really feel like going home for cny dinner.. Feels lethergic to my family..

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Location:Upper Serangoon View,,Singapore

give up?

2010-07-25T17:13:00.002+08:00

you sent me a sms
which consists of alot fucking fucking fucking fucking.
Do u really love me?
Can u put down your sad past and face this new life altogether?

I really want to focus 100% on my job and future
They say, a successful man will always have a woman supporting him
Are u that lady?

I'm kind of tired of giving in to you each and every single time.
i really feel like breaking down,
how come you do not have any patience left in me anymore?

work n life..

2010-07-25T10:15:00.002+08:00

i need to review on my EVERYTHING!!!!!!
i just cant be the one clapping again!

zombie

2009-09-02T06:12:00.001+08:00

1 week of zombie life
wish it will end fast..
man i want to succeed in my career
god bless me..

the explosion

2009-08-26T03:13:00.001+08:00

today finally exploded out.
i went to see a doc today.
due to the discovery of blood in my feces
so i msged my colleague
informing him that i gotta take overtime off in the morning to see a doc
And rushed back after the doc's consultation

Manager came back today
It was supposedly his off day
he found out that i was away for 2 hrs
Questioned me like im a criminal
" where the hell did u go for the half of day? "
i told him i went to see a doc cause of the blood in my feces
but there's no MC at all
Just medication to prove
He didnt even want to see it
And questioned me
And call boss AGAIN

I explode immediately
I mean
What manager is that?
A boss hire you to "manage" the shop and settle by your own means
Yet tiny lil bit he will complain to her
sigh

Yes we argued
I nearly layed my fist on him
Yet i endured
He just told me he wouldn't want to keep me in the shop anymore
sigh.

My results are coming
as in customers and sales are on the rise
http://flowerpod.com.sg/forums/Hair-Salons-Jurong-Point-t18564.html&pid=2329204
last post of the thread shows people complimenting my haircut
I just didnt want to give up like that
yet
i very much dont know how to handle a hypocrite like him
can god pls guide me?
Im very lost.

20th

2009-08-20T23:42:00.002+08:00

Today is mummy's 47th birthday
A very happy birthday to her~!
Wish she will be healthy always and happily dedicate her life to god

Im very unhappy
The manager i working with now is a damn hypocrite guy
Smiles n laughs with you at the front
Stab you all the way to big boss at the back
What sort of guy is that?
The worst kind of hypocrite i've ever seen in my entire life

Just hopes i'll tolerate my temper
If not there'll be chaos again
Curse him.

lethargic

2009-07-26T22:43:00.001+08:00

group of friends
drink frequently
one of them fall in love with me
jus because i cant reciprocrate her love for me
everything turns sour
whats wrong with having more choices for myself?

First post...

2009-02-03T02:09:00.000+08:00

hello all who may be interested in my blog. just wanna say i dedicate this blog to my personal diary, recording every moment of what i've been thinking / doing...

today just received a call from sean, asking me to be punctual at work tomorrow.. if not there's no angpoh for me... Haha.. as if im interested in that little money.. nevertheless, i wanna prove myself to my whole family (the Quahs) that i'm capable.. That hairdressing isnt a job to be so disgrace of..
That i've really changed from the old Javier..

i've been drinking alot today.. friskie's memories jus came flooding back to me all of the sudden.. He died on 02/09/08.. the month after my birthday.. my dad just lost him one night, then found by spca next day lying on the road...... it was really damn sad.. up to now he's still in my dreams every single day.. i miss him..

jus wanna tell all the dogs' owners out there.. cherish your beloved boy/girl.. they may just die out of a sudden.. dont regret at the end.. i used to spend my days out clubbing, spending time with girlfriends.. there he was waiting for me at the door every single night.. that was my happiest days in my life.. cause i knew i have a very reliable friend to rely on.. he will hear all my frustrations and sad stuffs.. share my happiness with him.. then one day out of a sudden he's gone!!! what the hell.. i remembered i sank into depression the month after his death.. didnt dare to go back home cause his memories will always be there.. but now i've recovered quite ok.. So wanna tell him ...

I LOVE YOU FRISKIE BOY. Always will do, and you'll be forever in my heart.. Hope u will not forgot your korkor who was with you since he was pri 6............